During the course of treatment, there was nothing normal so no comparison could be made. Now that I am slowly getting back to the “normal” life, and that’s when I see/feel the changes. Sometimes they are very minuscule stuffs i.e. food I put into my body; Sometimes more serious, matters that require at least a few seconds of mind work to decide to do or not to do.
Every time I make a decision, it makes me think What would I have done? How would I have done it? Am I going to do it differently now that I have had such an experience?
I guess one can comfortably say that it makes me think twice more often. But to the “subjects” that concern my heart, I would not waste another second.
It’s hard to give an example, unless I note down exactly what takes place in my head as it happens. However, the few seconds of brain storming could easily take up pages and pages…
The beautiful part of the change is that I am more connected to my heart, I treasure more what I like/love… The “How” part of Love can be eternal, but the “What” part of it can disappear any moment.
TBC…
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