Today is December 25th 2010,
which is also Day 14 i.e. 14th day after bone marrow infusion,
which is also the 23rd (and last) day I am in isolation!
Yes a BIG Christmas present from The BIG guy up there, or Santa! There’s no Christmas tree in here and I don’t want any present. All I asked for is the “Out of Isolation” card and I got it!
In the morning, in about 10 hours’ time, I will be transferred to the private ward. At least I get to do some walking to get over there. I wonder how I would feel to be in an elevator, to see people, to walk a straight line longer than 10 steps!! Exciting.
It’s also about time to get out of this BMT ward. No matter how positive I am, sometimes when I get to a point that I do not feel like watching anymore iTunes, nor reading, nor sleeping, fear takes over my mind with sensations of twitches around the area where tumours were found and I think about “what if” it comes back.
This is something I cannot just ignore and try to put my mind on something else instead. I need to find a way to be ok about it and acknowledge it. No more hiding!
New beginning it is! Though the past is not to be forgotten. I deeply believe it was my body’s own way of telling me, or rather teaching me, that something needs to change, physically and/or mentally and/or emotionally. The new journey is to be smarter, learn from the past, and live happily ever after…
Merry Christmas
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